The Faith Part – Jasmine’s Journey of Healing
This week Jasmine and I had our first follow up phone appointment with the doctor who treated her in Kansas. Based on her most recent blood tests and the phone consult he said something very moving. He said, “Well, Jasmine, you’ve launched!”. He then explained that even though she isn’t fully healed yet, her body is being set free from the clutches of lyme disease. She is being healed.
I’ve shared in previous blogs that I am believing for God to heal her completely: physically, emotionally, and spiritually. This week Jasmine shared something on FaceBook (so I know she won’t mind me sharing it here). She stated that she is done with our church. I sat down with her after she posted that to better understand why she feels that way. I found out that she has been “burned” by several church members, including church leaders and she is totally turned off by it. I get it. I’ve heard similar stories too many times by others and I know that God is not happy with how some “christians” treat other people. To be honest, I’m less concerned about her going to our church and more concerned about her relationship with God.
So what now? On the one hand I received great news on Jasmine’s physical healing. On the other hand it seems like spiritually she may be getting worse instead of better. What do I do now? There is a process of faith that God has been teaching me about for the last several years. It’s a process that everyone who wants to live by faith and not by sight has to go through. It’s not an easy one, but it is oh, so important!
If we are to live by faith then we can’t be driven by our feelings. Feelings result from what we see, hear, and experience. Faith results from holding onto what God says and believing it as ultimate, unchanging truth. I can choose to focus on the reality of how Jasmine feels about our church right now, or I can go deeper to another realm, the realm where God dwells. It’s a place of truth and beauty. Holiness and love. It’s where God tells me His side of the story. A place where He calls Jasmine’s end from her beginning, saying that His purpose for her life will stand.
“In the depths of Jasmine’s heart she truly knows that you, Yahweh, have become her shield. You take her and surround her with yourself. Your glory covers her continually. You lift high her head… I have cried to you, Yahweh, from your holy presence. Send me a Father’s help… Jasmine’s true hero comes to her rescue, for the Lord alone is her Savior. What a feast of favor and bliss he gives her!” (Psalm 3, The Passion)