Seeking, Listening, Believing – Jasmine’s Journey of Healing
I think one of the hardest things about having a child who has a chronic illness is trying to empathize on a day to day basis with how much it changes their world. Their lives aren’t normal. They can’t just bounce out of bed in the morning and attack another normal, busy day. Normal for them is dong their best to make it through another day of suffering.
Part of me wishes I could understand what Jasmine faces every day, but I also know that to even to think about her life of dealing with chronic pain is so heavy and overwhelming that it would destroy my hope of believing for a better future for her.
I could blame God. After all, He could have (should have?) healed her years ago. But that would also steal my hope for her healing. I know that God is in this with us. I know He loves her and has the power to heal her. My job, journey, determination, call it what you will – is to seek His face and listen to His heart. I know the answers are there. He never calls us to give up or stop trying. His answer isn’t “no” because He hasn’t told me “No”, so I will keep praying, keep listening, and by His strength keep believing.